6 reasons why I think I'm Bi

One more post before the night is out :)

Well first things first, I'm in an EXTREME maniac mode, like I'm fucking high as a kite at the mo, now I remember why I cut back on the mountain dew. No drugs I swear! But I think I may be Bi-Polar. It kind of came up when I read that Russel Brand was Bi-Polar so I did some research...only to scare the crap out of myself...(for refrences as to what the shit i'm on about check out http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder let's take some key points and cross refrence to myself:

1. Signs and symptoms of the depressive phase of bipolar disorder include persistent feelings of sadness, anxiety, guilt, anger, isolation, or hopelessness; disturbances in sleep and appetite; fatigue and loss of interest in usually enjoyable activities; problems concentrating; loneliness, self-loathing, apathy or indifference; depersonalization; loss of interest in sexual activity; shyness or social anxiety; irritability, chronic pain (with or without a known cause); lack of motivation; and morbid suicidal idealization. Well yeah, i shall tick...anxiety,guilt, anger is a major tick, isolation another major tick same for hoplessness sleep and apetite disturbances, fatigue big time, yeah generally just ticks for everything really, some of that stuff is spot on. Well cept the suicidal bit, I've thought about HOW I would want to die..if I died, no plans to carry it out though :/ I'm much too awesome for that, dontcha agree?

2 .Mania is the signature characteristic of bipolar disorder and, depending on its severity, is how the disorder is classified. Mania is generally characterized by a distinct period of an elevated, expansive, or irritable mood state. People commonly experience an increase in energy and a decreased need for sleep. A person's speech may be pressured, with thoughts experienced as racing. Attention span is low, and a person in a manic state may be easily distracted. Judgment may become impaired, and sufferers may go on spending sprees or engage in behavior that is quite abnormal for them. They may indulge in substance abuse, particularly alcohol or other depressants, cocaine or other stimulants, or sleeping pills. Their behavior may become aggressive, intolerant, or intrusive. People may feel out of control or unstoppable. People may feel they have been "chosen" and are "on a special mission" or have other grandiose or delusional ideas. Sexual drive may increase. At more extreme phases of bipolar I, a person in a manic state can begin to experience psychosis, or a break with reality, where thinking is affected along with mood. Many people in a manic state experience severe anxiety and are very irritable (to the point of rage), while others are euphoric and grandiose. I had to copy paste that entire paragraph, that shit is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo incredibly spot on it's not even funny, first time I read this I almost wet myself.

3. Hypomania is generally a mild to moderate level of mania, characterized by optimism, pressure of speech and activity, and decreased need for sleep. Generally, hypomania does not inhibit functioning like mania. Many people with hypomania are actually in fact more productive than usual. Some people have increased creativity while others demonstrate poor judgment and irritability. Many people experience signature hypersexuality. These persons generally have increased energy and tend to become more active than usual. They do not, however, have delusions or hallucinations. Hypomania can be difficult to diagnose because it may masquerade as mere happiness, though it carries the same risks as mania. I liked this one, that was pretty accurate too, its like the mania but I can think clearer, its usually when I write my best stuff when I'm in one of these moods. Hyper sexuality hahahah! You should read what I write, half my shit is porn type shit. When I was in Perth I'd put on my shortest shorts and my smallest singlet and just run at like 3 a.m, and feel the cold wind on my skin, i'd just run and run for ages, waay too much pent up energy. Decreased need for sleep? I decided like 3 hours ago that I was going to pull an all nighter...just for the sake of pulling an all nighter really.

4. Bipolar disorder has been associated with people involved in the arts but it is an ongoing question as to whether many creative geniuses had bipolar disorder. I've been called creative many times but genius? *blushes* hahaha

5. A series of authors have described mania or hypomania as being related to a high motivation to achieve, ambitious goal-setting, and sometimes high achievement. yeah...well that one doesn't need an explanation if you've been reading my blog.

6. I read somewhere that it may be aggravated by caffeine...yeah well I cut back on the Dew for a reason -.-

So that's 6 reasons why I think I'm bipolar...whatcha'll think? leave a comment!

Also, I watched some clips off of Step Up 3D, looks bloody awesome, that robot guy http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8VTW1iUn3Bg is bloody awesome, doesn't help my mood right now, been doing that shoulder roll thing for hours.

Oh and I watched Salt too! Now that was bloody awesome! 10/10 bloody fantastic. I literally laughed out loud when the Russians had straight vodka, racial stereotypes are always fun :D Also the plot..wow..so many twists :S anyway, must watch.

That's two long posts in a row! If my posts are getting a bit too long and boring..live with it fuckhead.

Cheerio love *British accent*